i think i might even have an undiagnosed mental problem.

the past few weeks have been gruelling for my mind. swinging from extreme to extreme, from feeling totally despondent and god-forsakened, to constantly encouraging myself and reminding myself of 'god's plans are never to harm you but prosper you'. many times for many things, they have been swinging in my life. each moment i'd be filled with so much hope, only to be smashed right down the very next moment. and mind you, it happens all the time, so many that i can go berserk if i just let myself go and wallow in self-pity just one step more.i came so close to a point where i totally lost hope in hoping in the lord.

very naturally, the next question asked would be, 'why, oh god, do u put me in such a situation?

where's the favour i ask of you if this is the place you want me to be?

im still trying to figure out. god did not promise anyone a life full of roses, but one that moulds character and a heart after his. i can only try to put my faith in him and trust his plans are in the making. i thank god for his faithfulness each day, every lunch, each morning, that he brings me through and gave me strength to press on.

meanwhile, i'll learn.

beautiful photographs are developed from films in the dark. if you think your life is in total darkness now, try imagine this : your life is a beautiful picture created by god in the making in the darkroom.you know at the end of the day, it'd be beautiful. - unknown

checklist...

japanese-made vs continental? - japanese(cheaper).
sedan,hatchback,suv? - budget.hatchbacks/mini sedans.
no crvs nor vitaras.neither my beloved rav4(or else RAVA to many).
yaris? good brand but ugly.
latio? drinks petrol.
jazz? new one is clumsy looking and its fat. not as fuel economic as current.
echo? funny shape.
sx4? slow pickup and heavy drive. no power.
swift? steady ride. but pickup not good and not powerful. noisy.

2? sexy.comfy.powerful.fuel economic.enough accesories.got power and good pickup.very quiet. i know i can still overtake on e expressway.

rationality? CHECKED.

Nice handling. Nice steering. Comfy ride. Responsive. Adequate accesories. Good safety. Good space for a small car. Nice design. Reasonably priced.

AND ITS GREEN.

Back-Track>>>>>>>>>>January 2008

Cellkids decided to have a photoshoot. Nice pictures but i cant post everything up. heh! Went to places like Red Dot musuem and somewhere behind Ann Siang Hill. Photoshots courtesy of Daniel Tham and artistic directions courtesy of VickyHo haha. Remember we had a great time out and really, thank God for friends =) im amazed cos its hard to be good friends for long when u have about 10 people. cheers to the last 7yrs(since sec 1, while mel went way back to early primary sch days, josco was primary 5 and rachel? haha sine THAT bungalow i guess haha) and for the times ahead when id be laughin at all your wrinkles while sarah and mel will still be eating kids' meals haha!


Girls. Left to right : Rachel , Mel Evelyn and Sarah




















Us preparing.




















With a lil joy of course




















gerald josco mel rach eve sarah zac me




















BFFs. HAHAHA


















































just the guys.


















































i like this one!




















kids will be kids.




















trying to act a lil emo over here..






























and evelyn and gerald had to laugh,and how can mr suave ever look emo?Haha!































At the end of the day, we're just harmless bums who laze around and paint the town red, just like any other teenager.(not much time left to call ourselves TEENAGERS)




















Here's da new boss. eve's quite upset to work for me :(




















we found some nice graffitti place. nice back alley






















a nice,warm 'family-style' photo eh? its the usual all stand there and smile pattern. nothing new but i like! heh





















people who wishes to enjoy life doing the things they like while watching their worlds pass by.




















The band's new album will be out in stores this summer.






























they're not just a one-hit-wonder band. they are called Da Pseudo Band.
haha sheesh, this is the only pic that my belly is the least protruding! yikes!!!darn!! but after NS i lost 5 kg. its a different story now people...




















happy people! thats just who we are, and the way we just are!




















the made-official cellkids car the moment i passed my driver's license. its sad cos my family's going to change this car for another.no more big family car to carry everyone around anymore :(






















i miss the secondary school days. miss the ability to just go out and have fun without any cares. i miss the fun times we had. with responsibilities as we grow, it makes me treasure those times even more, and wish even more badly there'd come a time when i dun have to bother at all about life and just have fun. maybe when we've become grandparents, and when we've retired?

i love them. here's one to the day we age and wrinkle(and shrink and sag) haha. and erm, as morbid as it sounds, to the day of each other's funeral wake. ok snap outta this stupid thought! in june's words, happithots! haha

thank god for friends.