Beholding Your beauty
Is all that I long for
To worship You Jesus
Is my sole desire
For this very heart,
You have shaped for for Your pleasure
Purposed to lift Your name higher
Here in surrender
In pure adoration
I enter Your courts
With an offering of praise
I am your servant
Come to bring You glory
As is fit for the work of Your hands

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
All of creation resounds with the song
Worship and praise Him
The Lord of Lords

Spirit now living
And dwelling within me
Keep my eyes fixed
Ever on Jesus' face
Let not the things of this world
Ever sway me
I'll run 'til i finish the race

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
All of creation resounds with the song
Worship and praise Him
The Lord of Lords

unto the Lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
All of eternity echoes the song
Worship and praise Him

Now unto the Lamb who sits on the throne
Be glory and honour and praise
Call all the sinners to join in the song
Worship and praise Him
The Lord of Lords


Lord of Lords by Hillsong.
song of the moment for me right now..

dear all,
please stay with me..this is going to be a long entry..

I've last blogged since almost a month ago!(a sentence that you'd probably read a tad too many times in e previous entries haha!) and many things have happened. finally decided to put everything down for you guys to read.



sitted : me(le hotte) , tim seet, *coughs-coughs, the pastor's, who's based in thailand, son .
behind : jesse, linus, hyung joo, daniel, kevin
lagi behind : mathew chris jeremy
missing : peter









































1. my cell.
looking back from where i started, i really have to GIVE PRAISE that God has sustained me through my 1.75 yrs of cell leading, from a mixed cell to a all-boys cell. Since taking them around in March,(approx. 4mths since) God has made them grow exponentially. Moreover, with the lil ways of these young punks, God brought 3 new boys along, Linus, Hyung Joo and Kevin. I think,
sometimes i'm so filled w God's joy that i start talking about them to people randomly.

Today i was leading cell word to kick start them the idea of evangelism and what's the significance, what's their take on e issue and how they'd deal with it with their friends. Though, we went off-tangent, im glad i allowed e discussion to head that direction, 'cos it uncovered so much about them that i never knew. i never knew the bunch of 14 yr olds' would be interested in apologetics and how to present the ideas of the authencity of our faith and belief, how is Christianity logical, Big Bang etc etc. That means, sk, more reading to go.. haha! Im glad, cos, it enriches my wealth of knowledge on the most important thing in life, the Father.

Leading cell has prospered me tremendously, cos i now take responsibility in my daily walk with God. There's an added factor for me to strive to walk right with God daily, cos now, they look up to me, and being imitators of Christ, i want them to see God in me and let my life speak to them, instead of just mere words from my mouth. I remember vividly Ailing approached me when i was in sec4 about cell leading, i know i told her e cliche answer of 'i dun't think i'm ready' but all she said was 'you never know when you're ready. If you're ready, you dun need God already'. I hold on to that, that leaning on God has made me grow. Praise God!

2. my granduncle
he was diagnosed with liver cancer stage 4, and next day i knew it spread to his intestines. went to SGH to visit him and saw how his face has sullen and how he thinned, it really makes me wonder, with all the goals and achievements I've aimed, i need God more importantly. shortly within a month, he departed and that was 4 days after i last see him(before leadership summit). very fast, he was on an increasing dosage of morphine, and my dad was telling me morphine will slow down ur heart rate and u eventually die. i remember vividly how he used to be all smiley and his loud laughter will ring the house, he's a cartoon haha! how his house is filled w yakult during new year and all my cousins will wipe his fridge dry, bak kwa, and his wife makes delicious chwee kueh. but, the sight of his sunken face and bulging stomach etch in my mind, as i remember him smiling to me, i smiled and waived back, walked out of the ward with my dad. that was that of me to him.

my aunt was sharing w me how she was pretty upset, cos she didnt knew for sure if he accepted christ or not. but well, guess id only know in time to come..

3. my day out w Josco de JoJo and Zacky Zach.
haha allright, zackyzach is sth ancient now cos no one says such cheesy things anymore. it was a long time since we 3 hung out. a long time since. but it was well spent time at newyorknewyork. we ordered a lil too much, with my beefballs sphag, zac's salmon sandwhich, josco's RAW whole chicken(hahahahah) and my impulsive rodeo wings and a pizza. Strolled to the marina stadium and watched lights haha and saw charmed power. Bummed into Jamie and class to as they went to wacth King Lear. WAH JAMIE'S PRETTY W MAKE UP. im stunned in my 6 yrs of being ultra gd friends w her. ok back to my point, Go has blessed me w these 2 buddies and i really thank God i've walked life for e last 6 years w them. all the nonsense in secondary school days, the aii-sar-lah by zac, pizza hut by Josco, dunking conspiracy by both, o man, tons to mention which are all captured in digital photos! hahaha. josco, quick turn 18!!! haha ok shit, and next u know, they'll go, SK QUICK PASS UR DRIVING FOR THE 8th TIME SO THAT WE CAN HITCH YOUR RIDE!!. CHOI!























4. chris return, then departure.
he came, he gone. you lived, you died, you said in 3 days you would rise.. ok the last sentence was no about Chris. I'm blessed by his testimony on how he obtained his grades in his conversation he shared with me:

paN!cker // good vibrations. says: how did u "hear" of my grades !?!? paN!cker // good vibrations. says: i just ... pushed n pushed and pushed ... got the result i wanted .. paN!cker // good vibrations. says: even tho it was really painful and ... stuff? paN!cker // good vibrations. says: but all that i pushed SO HARD FOR ... came through.

It tells me God honours those who stick close to him, which i see in Chris. My fear right now is what i want to do is not what God's plan is for me. and i worry if i dunt do well in my As to qualify. I can see a sad picture for me ahead. I have trouble surrendering my life in God's hands in this aspect. But i know, when the time comes, i'll deal with it and be blessed in the process =)

it's great that he's looking forward with me to Nov 22! haha! all the way for stats, mate!






















taken during the camp comm'06 days. heh! this will do until we find a clearer pic of both of us.
he photoshopped to blur his eyes cos he was staring.. so hum sup, hor? hahah!

5. driving
forgive me if i sound too snob, but i seriously think my driving is dam zai lah! hahahaha! i think many would have heard this many times. haha! thank God for granting me journey mercies, and thank God for the many journey mercies ahead in the years, and the probably-close shaves. okok, next time u hear me talking how sud i am in driving, just shut me up by reminding me i had to take my final theory evaluation thrice. embarrassing.