One Song( For Retard Sarah)

helloa helloa!
my dearest retard you can be!
though u may scream my ear dums till it burst or just burnt up my mid night by telling all ur fairy tales..
or even writing ur chinese new year journal..
wad kind of friend ish this!!??

but then again shes soo special
a one lil girl that can light up ur darkest moments..
sometimes by her kind and gentle words..but mostly of her shrieks on the phone!!
she will offer u the best advices someone can give of from ur age(y'know..like the age of 3 or something, eh??)
though wad she says sometimes may not mean anything
but still thank her for all that



chorus

wad a havoc she can wreck...
but then its all okay..
still yet lovely and sweetly she can say goodnight and sent u off the dreams
shes one SMALL girl that is so special
and funky and crazy she can be
she just have this thing
that makes her such a good bud..
but sometimes people mistaken her as some freaks....

::sermon for the day : when B meets G and wants R::

ok..actually..well..used to tot that yea..sometimes..this kinda thing doesnt really matters abt age..owell..but after sitting thru the sermon..and things that happened..well..i sorta came to an idea that..well..waiting till a certain age b4 going into such things might actually be good thing afterall,.. when we're at such a young age..we arent abl;e to even handle our friends properly..that include em myself..which i totally suck at it..and the ability to understand how others feel is something that i really need to work on, and i sometimes too, have realised that, i really have to be a bit more sensitive to how others feel of me..and one thing i must try, is to bond back us again..and not letting that gap between us to make each toher feel left out or anything..in anyway..i'd rather be left out then to let them be..for i know..i want the best for them..its alrite to me..as in, this is wad i want, and i wont regret abt it or anything..and probably well..like..being able to juggle friends and friendships..b4 stepping foot on something known as relationship is actually sth thats good?..probably..

this is one song i composed for my dearest lil fren!!

One Big Strong Girl
hey aunty!
though you may be jus that little few years older than me
though in height thats a huge vass amount of diff
but u know wad
i admire that strong sense of self-worth u had for urself
still standing as sturdy as the niagara falls.
after all so much of plights

Chorus:
Cos u're the SUPER WOMAN!
and u're One Big Little Strong Girl
Standing like a rock, tho when hit by a wave..
Always having God as ur refuge and strength!
Always being there for me...
Cos ure the SuperWoman!!


heheh,..liek that song? tho i dun know how to compose the music..but i jus wrote the lyrics for ya!! ahahah..-smiles-

vanessa carlton - Unsung

if only I could get into that corner of your head
where things finally match and meet the standards that you set
oh how I wish I was the treasure that you were lookin' for
bet I would feel better if only I could find the door

I am cryin'
you aren't tryin'
I am melting away

I wait for the words on the tip of your tongue
I'm only as good as the last one
well you decide and I abide as my song goes unsung (yeah, yeah, yeah)

things are goin' crazy and I'm not sure who to blame
everything is changing and I do not feel the same
I'm slippin' through the cracks of floors I thought that were strong
I'm tryin' to find a place where I can feel like I belong

Well, I am cryin'
you aren't tryin'
I am melting away

[chorus]

If only I could be the lesson that you learn, you learn if only
I could be the last one that love burns, it burns... yeah
if only I could get into that corner of your head
where things finally match and meet the standards that you set
oh how I wish I was the treasure that you were lookin' for
bet I would feel better if only I could find the door

Well, I am cryin'
you aren't tryin'
and I am melting away


yes yes...the song jus kept flying around my brain..and why must u always have to be like that..could u have known that, you know, some times, your this kind of insensitivity thinking that others are being insensitive is actually a hindrance to me, and yes, may unwittingly hurt me, or sometimes, even others.. yes,no deny, that yes, i must learn to be able to see my weaknesses and be able to change it, but thats only wif the help if someone can tell me or show me signs right? i cant possibly go round, thinking like, owell! he soo damn angry wif me for doing this..when how on earth would i know, wad went wrong.

and yes, i must say that why are u getting so petty these days? im being extremely frank right now, not tryna hurt u or wad..jus that u know, i have to be me, and thats me, i change for the better, but strictly for myself, not others. sometimes, its not very nice to just make the use out of me, just because im nice to others, or am always soft on u, and take some advantages and take things to far, hey, understand, there are limits. its not very nice to keep thinking u're always right, like, hello..next time if u carry on with this kind of attitude into the society, wad would u get out of it? beaten up or wad?oh yea, and yea, i dunt mind jus lowering down myself and pride to just say some "im sorry" kinda thing, but i dun want to just say it, for the sake of it, i want it to be real, and mean it, i dun jus want to say it, jus because its politically right to do so, or sometimes, may not even be in the wrong i have also to jus apologised, like, given to u, i think u would've long asked people to F**ked off right, and be damn pissed off, even thought when u r not fit to be angry and its really high time for u to apologise..but right now, i dun need that shit, i just want u to realise that you know, many things may not be wad it seems,ad right, now,,u are living in ur own world, where everything is only wad u think, when u dint give a ****ing damn to wad is around u.

yes yes, right now..im just feeling all these frustrationd deep within me, and yes, u noe, its all abt in a fit of anger..but mixing with this, is all my confusion, my sorrows, my sadness and worst of all, jus me..i lok so devastated right now, and feel like a total rotten shit, being so un-valued just like this, and being treated like dirt like that, getting angry over for nothing, and having to always to succumb to u by sayin sorry for hell noes wad and why, enough of these kind of bullshit, hey, im a person too alright, im not some kind of kind soul where u can all day make use of and not getting angry with..yes, i try..i noe i have to try, but can u feel the way i do now? is it just that simple "bad" i felt u think eh? it brings into our 2 yr soo long and closed bond friendship into test..

yes, i am willing to do it, for the sake of u..just for u..i will hold it, and meanwhile, be myself, till the day that well, somehow u realise, its the nice me that u're knowing and having, not the nice me that u are toying with. yes yes..am i getting all so over sensitive? but how am i to help it, when i 'm feeling all these kind of rotten shit

halfway thru a nice movie..came a stupid thing..jus b4 the happy ending of the movie...it just spoils everything!
EVERYTHING! u understand? was having a real delightful erm, supper with beks, when u came and toked to my sis, sayin some crapy shit, and im so dis-trustful, o well, yes maybe im a big mouth..yea..and tell everything to the girls..esp sarah eh[owell, isnt that wad ya think?] u jus spoil my 2 of my days consecutively..and having to remember, u spoiled my sunday last week, why must it always be u who destroys my everything.[even right now, ya putting my faith into test]

i dun have the energy to go on, coming to church tomorrow or not, its really up to u, and to think u r not coming to church cos im some kind of shit frens..be that way, when in fact, i should be the one not attending church when things seems so crappy for me..jus don understand, yes, jus don understand why..be it u are coming, just to worship God, or just to come see my embarrasment day[as wad u claim, to one day, see people hate me to the core, and just stand there and luff at me, when u do not want to tell me things] or be it u want to enjoy having ur beauty sleep at home, its really up to u..

brings me to this..read in the book -a love worth giving-, yes, in wad ways are u having the right to discriminate me, when have u did some reflections on yaself, and wad has god toked to u abt, and have u tried to love me[u know, that kind of love i mean, not the lovey dovey kind..]before u come and get angry with me? have u got the patience that God has, even for the worst sinners on earth ?

really have no energy to go on..up to u..everything is up to u, this is ur life, and friends are hard to come by, and u dun toy around with them for the goodness and being nice to u. treasure ur frens..always in my heart i want u to know even if the worst is to happen..


from jimmy's blog..might as well put it here.. ::

The unparallel being that is me


Out of bounds,
or so you think you are.
Merely you?
What a bloody sense of great self-worth!
Superfluous and mellow reasons,
they don’t mean a thing to me anyway anymore.
Aren’t we all fluctuating? Isolating? Intoxicating?
Seeking a natural equilibrium,
putting the sorry state out of one another’s life.

You are Ephesians.


Which book of the Bible are you?
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One Night

cheerful and always delighted boy i was
happy with everyday goes by
happy go lucky one
and evryone jus liked

flew thru the range of cloud 9
life was soo cares-free
and it was a blissful time
yea..funny how life can be..
a 360 degrees change it can be

on light steps..
i walked home like droplets on water..
oh, hell knows wad happens just after that

the sun rose from the east..
and thunders seperated the grounds
a mere text on the phone
never could i thought would mean so much to me
and indeed affected me humongously

got extremely sensitive
just out of the blue,
just out of the blue.
and yes, just out of the blue.

why, and why
and why was it so?
why cant we pour it out as and when it happens?
why must one accumulates all the other's weak points?
why do we have to bear grudges?
why must u get so all over sensitive?
why cant be more merciful
could u have jolly put into the my shoes?

for hell knows, its not very fun to be me..
having to react to sudden, really sudden
impromtus that pop out in the blue
yes, in the blue..
and havin to succumb to all these helly crappy shit?

and yes yes.. i did it.. i did it..
finally..
settling things tho reluctantly, yet for the sake of others..
who cares..yes..who cares? who gives a fcukin damn abt this?
yea..onli i noe..and God, and my realli realli good pals..
i love u lil one..

-love always
Sk

yoohoo and morning rise!

jus talked to zac...wow...like 9 in the morning!! ab 30 mins after i woke up..heheh...will be reporting to centre myself...:(..but i know! its all in the good cause! so, nevermind! heheh..but of cos..if someone is to come down and find me halfway..and like gimme SOME SWEETS!!..i'll be soo glad mann..anyone??

got a day ahead..band..sigh...lonng hours..zac will be going out wif his ex classmates...i wanna go to!!!..:(...

yes yes..abt less than a month to 7th july..hahaha..and wad a fren to have requested for some soft toy named by herslef "miaomiao"..when she cant be sure whether it was a "ruffruff" too...and so many more...wad jeans? pants? omg...:p..i'll prolly say that,.........heheh.....its a year ago i watched bend it like beckhem u noe...hahahah..kidding...:p

heheh..yupp..been wanting to type in this lyrics for a lonng time..cool song wad..wad so bad abt this song...niceee..!!

A Teens - A Perfect Match

[Boy]
You spend your money on diamonds and pearls
I'd sell my car just to travel the world
I look broke baby - you got flash
But even so we're a perfect match

You're into fashion, dinners and art
I know the south park series by heart
You conversate baby - I talk trash
But even so we're a perfect match

[Girls Sing]
We're like night and day - White and black
But what we have is a perfect match
When I say this - you say that
But love comes easy 'cause opposites attract

[Boys Sing]
You keep your clothes looking crispy & clean
(alt.keep your clothes so fresh and so clean)
I got holes all over my jeans
You love "Grease" baby - I love "Snatch"
But even so we're a perfect match

[Girls Sing]
We're like night and day - White and black
But what we have is a perfect match
When I say this - you say that
But love comes easy 'cause opposites attract

I know - we'll beat the odds together
We'll keep our love intact - and prove that opposites attract

::exhausted::

blogging while scolding christine..arg...she still asked me whether i've scolded enuff..owell..prolly i cant like tell them wad to do anymore..hey..its the both of u..so decide for urselves alrite..how seriously or lightly u take is like, non of my business when i alredi tried so many countless times knockin sense into her cow head..[pardon me..]..yea so go apologise and stop turing him round and round..

oh yea..im so MTT[mulit-task-talented]..yea..so prolly i wunt be able tok and think properly wad im blogging..yepp..had a tired day..and i have no idea why i volunteered for tmr..heheh..im a good smaritan..yea right..

yes yes sleepy head..u noe who u are.. =p

yoohoo!!!heheh...wad a satisfyin day it will ever be..

heheh..had chinese oral..sucked..totalli mann...it was horrendous...gosh..dunt prob any further abt it...embarrasment only..yucks...pontank band..wa...cant find the teacher...and felt so bad..cos i only left her a note on her shelf..lets hope it all turns out ok..

wahaha...during oral..had soo much fun..jeremy was so fren man! played hp together..haha..and toked abt girls...oh yea.."acnaib"..hehe..if u gettit..hehehe..felt dsooo cheeky...

urgh..felt so sad for him..got a terribkle thrashin frm his mom..and has a curfew to obey by 10 tonite..and commit to 1 hr of tv a day..sigh...prayin for ya...and of cos!! heheh...the "u-know-wad" thingy..

heheh..Day1 at the Centre[as wad they call it for the BASC]..realli got to know them better after lunch..tho it was a tough time teachin them english..havin to teach them when to use "is" and "are" when they were actually slower than me..now i understand the pain of the teachers of mine..nah im kidding..i learnt fast ok!!...yupp..tho it requires a lot of patience..but after hearin them out their sad side of view..gives us the motivation to press on with them!..

heheheh..had new nicknames again..im porcupphine..while beks' puffer fish..cool...any more spikes wanna join us?? heheh..cool eh...went all the way to holland v for lunch..met jimmy..hehehe...took so many, wow! artistic photos on the bus...yea..hahah...and jimmy said my toe socks were...grrr!!!..hahaha its sooo comfy!! wait till u try mann!! betcha think its not as bad as wad u tot it would be...blu-ah!=P

yes yes...dread abt the 4hr maths lesson tml..sigh..can die mann..then im seriously pondering how am i gonna tell my grandmother again that im coming home at 6 again tml..yea..hehehe...lookin forward to day2 of erm...helping out at basc??[erm..in another sense...lemme put it erm...baby-sitting?]..heheh..but its fun lar..tho quite tiring..

well..rest well people..and prepare for the bustling june hols....erm i think we are in the hols alredi...-paiseh-...

i feel damn hungry right now.

yea...its holidays..and i have to drag my lazeee ass out of bed like 6am?? sigh...had sucha lonng day...band...blew like mad..but was productive tho! heh! but wad crap..theres band tml too...like frm 11 30 to 2.30? when my chinese oral starts at like 8 in the morning and can prolly end at abt 8.30?? wad am i gonna do?? with that 3 lil hrs???? sigh..

whoah!! so inspired by matrix!! heheh! had art remedial..yea..sounds more like some introductory lesson for our next semester's art project...on fashion design..to design the clothes these matrix are gonna wear..cool eh? with all sort of shapes the clothes may be..and the motifs on the clothes can be christianity!! heheh! (since the teacher said that the show symbolizes christianity and many other things all rojak-ed into one..sigh..)

prayin that this week would past practically fast ! and i want to get started wif hw!! b4 its too late...can do it...laziness....plain laziness.. oh yea..smell sth really nice..smells lie chicken..either like baked or curry chicken...hopefully my grand mother is cookin it or sth...or mebbe my neioghbours...oh! my grandmother's cookin curry!! heheheheh...

prayer for the day:: prayin that the week would quickly past..cos of allt he stupid lessons that have to go back to attend..can stress me out mann!! nono! i cant be stressed out!! ..yea...basc tml...dunoo wad will i be doing??...::

and yes..hahahah..josco..i dint noe u were from the registry of marriage..hahahah..and dint noe my BIG day was on the 18th Oct...heheheh...nice trick tho..next time u shld make ur voice sound deepr..then it'll be more convincin and more mature..hahah..almost got tricked by u..tot u were really some weird person..but the moment u said ROM..ahah!! knew it all...

and yes yes..why is there soo many of the same person on my chatterbox...fishy...interesting yea...

[[overcome ones sorrows :: terrible and perserverence]]

sad sad..

heheh..to lazeee to go out...only woke up from my beauty slp at abt 10 45, cool eh? ok, for me..its like damn long alredi...owell...its been so lonng snce i tok on the fone till the wee hours..yea..hehe..neva tot of going out, wanted to get kickin wif my homework..yet...procrasination was the thief of time yea..hehe...beks and sarah got me going out..so dragged my big bum outta my house..reachin there only like soo late..

dint watch any flicks..the queue was soo loonng...yea.. sigh..but had a whooping time taking neos..btu gosh..these is the worst day of my life..and i tink beks shares the same thoughts too!! gosh!! and my spasticated face...

den went to beks house..heh..drank hooch...owell..got red...AS USUAL!! ..sigh..but got over it quite fast tho...both of them slept on the bed and behaved like some immatured idiots playin a fool and tryna be stupid kinda thing..heheh..woops...im jus being frank..hahah..but they were cute!! heheh..oh woops! 4get wad i drank!..

then went home...so sad.. so sad... so stoned..made me stoned out too..like a porcupphine..heheh..but kinda spiced up a bit when playin my handfone games...hmm! felt so bad not gettin off the bus..but i guess..it was late too, and dint want to get [her] into trouble..

haiyoyo...my dear lil grand daughter is soo upset....why..old grandpapa here mann!! ..heheh

why was it this way?

owells..went church..woke up happily and got all ready for church..decided to be a bit vain and put on contacts...and cool, andrea said i look better! ha! beks! see..i dunt look preety alrite..i look MORE CUTE! =p..yea..anyway..shengjie dustin and christine came..hmm..realli hoped they didnt really felt left out or anything..yea..btu they certainly wont felt left out : josco found them talkin so damn loudly..haha..and omg! they put in offertory! when the bag came a round..I FELT DAMN HORRENDOUS AND BAD! havent explain to them...wa...

went for lunch..cool...found out leemey wasnt as bad as wad we tot her to be durin last year's sarah's birthdae...when she went "oh so pretty.."..-shrugs shoulders-..yepp...

owell...prolly, she really needs to understand that she shouldnt be that negligent to the people around her? and should realli value the people around her..and be a bit more sensitive? hmmf..

but then..at the end of the day..i know all things will come out well..FOR GOD IS PUTTIN US ALL TO TEST! since we're such damn good close and gluey budS! right? heheh...

yoohoo!!

heh..jus started a blog..thinking that..owell..lifes been so BUSY and its high time i shld start writing down things that happen b4 i forget them..